day twelve, thirteen, fourteen, and sixteen...

 Brooooo,

I've just been stressed the whole week about choosing a school...

Wish me luck!

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 i’m sad china hasn’t been posting on her blog ;( thank you annali for the content 

ANNALI being swag af

day nine, ten, and eleven…

my goofy ass and rod gilfry 🥸

 Day nine. It was a boring Friday. I just hung out with my mom all day and did a little bit of homework in the night.

Day ten. I went to Long Beach’s Open House and it was fun. I took my mom, I would’ve invited my dad as well, but he was working and I didn’t want to bug him since he’s been catching up. It was nice showing my mom what my life could look like. I almost bought merch, but held myself back since there is a chance I don’t end up there…

Day eleven. I went to church service and heard the guy that played Don Alfonso at the LA Opera last month live only a few feet away from me. It was super cool! Downside of today is my car smells like mildew :/ I cleaned the inside and put baking soda on the carpet. I’m leaving it over night. I hope it helps somehow… I’ll update y’all tomorrow!!

day eight…

Today I went to do a shadow day at CSULB. I really enjoyed it and gave me insight on how a “normal” music student day would go. I also meet some cool people, students and professors, which made me understand the general vibe of the school. I was surprised how chill everyone was, because I was under the impression that conservatory’s always were super competitive and tense. This day really won me over. I want to go so bad… I might just yolo and figure out housing later. I still have a shadow day at CSUF this upcoming Thursday so let’s see how that goes.

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 currently sitting in a music theory class that’s also a little bit of history. i’m really shocked i understand/am picking up so much. i’m no pro, but it makes sense, maybe i’ll upload a clip of the lecture later….

day seven…

 I hung out with Annali yesterday and got no homework done, but yolo, the vibes. We started Shiny Stockings in C5 and I’m excited now! I’m really lazy to write a whole blog for April 9th, but point is it was a good day. :)

Except that the McDonalds I went to with Annali was out of stock of the Minecraft meal. :(

 

look at bro 😝

day six…

I’m in bed right now. I want to wake up earlier tomorrow to study the Brahms and wash my hair. I’ll let yall know if that actually happens lol. 

Today was good. I had a meeting with Dr. R and basically it looks like I’m most likely gonna end up commuting, which I guess isn’t the worst, but I really want to dorm. He didn’t tell me to commute, but I came to that conclusion haha. He did give me props because Boston covered all my tuition. 

I finally started actually playing the second half of Minuet in G and it’s not that hard, so I don’t know why I waited so long. The spirit moved me today I guess.

Anyway, see yall later. 

Gn.

day five...

Yo, I'm late again, lol.

Yesterday was nice, but also kind of mid? I was so lazy to go to school in the morning since I had went to the concert the night before (read day four...). I mustered (is that right?) the little bit of energy I had to get my ass to my Ethnics class because I had a presentation I had to do. I show up ready to do my part, but this shit was crazyyyy. Let me describe what the assignment was first. Basically we each bring in an item that represents our culture and you tell your partner what it means to you and how it connects to your culture. We then go up an present the other persons item and all the information they gave us. This girl brought in a bible, which is fine, but what I was not expecting was for her to bring THREE pages, front and back, full of text that she wanted me to read like a speech. It was literally 80% bible versus. She was basically talking about how she wants everyone else to believe in Jesus and other Christian stuff, which I mean good for her? live your truth, but that's for you to say on your own time. Not for me to be preaching. So, I told her that I don't feel comfortable reading it, and I had to tell the professor as well and everyone was just hearing me lol. I didn't want to come across as "stubborn," but like I am not going to be the one preaching someone else's message. She didn't even connect the actual item itself to herself, she just used this as an opportunity to preach about god. That isn't my job to do, that's hers since it is her belief. Anyway, she was up there for like 5 minutes reading versus and preaching about sins and what not. Later in the day though she send me an email "apologizing" and says, AND I QUOTE, "I hope that one day you will find peace in your own life."

This bitch pissed me off so bad, anyway, Monday threw me off... but thank you to Annali for getting me through the day <3

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 I just got off the phone with Annali, but it ended up with me and Annali's mom (Cynthia!!!) talking for like an hour lmaoo. We talked about financial aid and housing. Anyway, I ended up emailing Dr. R about it to see what he thought.

day four…

 Hey y’all…

I’m in bed right now. I just got settled from the j-hope concert I went to today with my two cousins and friend. It was honestly so much fun! I mean I knew I wasn’t going to not like it, but it really was just what I needed right now. It reminded me of my 16 year old self just mindlessly fangirling over K-pop idols and my 18 year old self having the time of my life at concerts. 

He performed some BTS songs as solos and if I were to be honest with myself, I almost cried. It just made me so appreciative for the feeling of happiness and joy that can be achieved through music and friends. I hope you have an experience similar because it’s amazing.

Warm Regards,

Brianna Raygoza

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 So I had a financial money meltdown before going in to church… I was planning on getting my disbursement money on Friday, but it got posted later and now I won’t get it until Tuesday or Wednesday. I had to ask my dad for money, so I could pay my rent and pay him back later. I get paid the first Sunday of the month from the church, so I was prepared to have an extra $200 to get me by. Get by a whole concert… I almost sold my ticket because I had no money lol. I was on my way to church and was going to stop by Home Depot to buy oil, but then I remembered I didn’t even have money to buy the oil. *crying I called my mom telling her that even if I sold the ticket I wouldn’t get the money until later bc of it transferring and other things… I walk out of the room and Dr. R was walking in and I am pretty sure he over heard everything :/ because later when I started walking to the back he asked if me not getting paid today messed with my cash flow and I said “a little” and laughed haha. He said something along these lines “We can give you the money, luckily we are in a place with our cash flow to do that.” The way I almost cried lol. Anyway, life was terrible an hour ago and now it’s good, but I do feel weird that I did a money exchange with a teacher… Anyway, maybe you read this maybe not, but If you got this far comment the word “Foo Fighters” since they are playing that at the church right now.

day three…

 Hey, I know I’m late…

I went with my dad to my uncles place and it was nice being with my other cousins, though they’re all boys lol. They like video games and sports, but I also like that stuff sometimes, so it’s nice to have someone to talk to about that. It’s also nice to see them and how much they’ve grown up since I’ve last seen them, which is usually every couple months. 

We ate wings!!! I love wings <3 I probably ate the equivalent of two Costco rotisserie chickens but in just wings and drumsticks. The dads were frying them up outside and the moms and me were inside yapping. One of them likes anime and it kind of makes me laugh. I feel like anime is a thing for the youth normally, so seeing her wear a anime t shirt makes me happy. Keep living your truth queen.

Anyway, motto of the day: Live your truth.

Warm Regards,

Brianna Raygoza

me and annali fr if china jumps out a plane

 

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Just found out Annali is throwing up, sad times. :( 

UPDATE @ 2:40PM

Annali feels better now and we are currently on facetime together with China as well.

day two…

 Hey y’all!

So everything worked out after all. I’m in the car right now with Annali and China and we are going to go to the Salvation Army, and maybe Walmart. We ate good (as you can see below) and I’m happy. :) 

the sass is insane, got a bunch of owls out here…

Warm Regards,

Brianna Raygoza 

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If this disbursement doesn't post on my account soon imma start tweaking. Please pray for me y'all (china and annali) 'cause if not, I will not be able to cover their half of KBBQ :( but if you know me, I find a way, so it'll probably end up alright lol anyway, see you around...

UPDATE @ 5:08PM

I figured it out lol and am currently in the car with the amigis :)

me and gang in pv....

day one....

 Hello... this is the start of my blog. 

Today I went to CSULB and did a trial lesson. I've gotta make a decision soon. *crying

On a brighter note, I get a disbursement tomorrow. Me, Annali, and China are supposed to eat KBBQ tomorrow night before she leaves out of the country on her trip. So, it came at perfect timing.

Anyway, see y'all later.

Warm Regards,

Brianna Raygoza